Nothing like a good movie to give me a breathe of light to live again.
I felt completely sick about my dysfunctional life for the past three days that i refuse to get out of bed, thinking of the worse when i'm actually in reality. Whenever i rolled out of my covers and open my eyes, it just feels like a total nightmare to live. I dont have a car, the last time i bought cigarettes, i payed using coins uptil rm6.50, which clearly defines how broke i am, my boyfriend is all the way in a farm in kuantan building a gate, my best friend is in united kingdom, my other best friend is in hartamas, being a goddess, i am just basically an introvert who doesnt go out partying or drinking, i dont collect stamps and i cant draw for nuts sake, i have a muffin top whenever i wear jeans, and i have lopsided, nicotine stained teeth, and i dont have a fucking digital camera to provide photographic prove of the current mess i am in.
That is why.
That is why i sleep more than a cat does.
To add up to my misery, the LCD screen for the fujitsu lifebook laptop got smashed into oblivion, and god knows who did it. We had plenty of children over, but i guess an obese leprechaun landed its omnipresent ass on it, and it smashed. U can hardly see anything on the screen now.
After all these occurence, i watched a movie. Nothing hip or cool, or trendy, doesnt involve alcohol and drugs, but it was special. At the end of it, it was just a perfect mirror of myself, and it reminded me that weird people like me who doesnt have that many friends, doesnt have symmetrical face or a gorgeous flowing hair, is still capable of living life. Things will fall into place when we are grateful about the little things in life; like having a mom and dad, 14 cats, a blogspot, a simple, loving boyfriend, a bed, small change in jeans pocket, country mart being a walking distance from my house, a pair of legs, and a bit of brain capacity.
I suppose, thats what matters for now. Just to be grateful. More will come... in small packages.
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